A couple of weeks ago I got a message in my inbox asking me about my 2 miscarriages. I took it as a cue that the time has arrived to write about it in my blog. I have long wanted to share this part of my life but have opted to wait since I was pregnant for the past nine months and have celebrated my child's birth 2 months ago, that this prospective entry had to take a backseat.

So here goes:

The First Time
Tom and I have planned to start working on the baby project after our church wedding. So when 5 months afterwards I had a missed period I could hardly contain my excitement. This monthly visitor (as what we call it back in the Philippines) comes regularly like clockwork so I knew that when I get back from doctor's clinic to confirm my suspicion, I will be bearing good news. True enough, I was 7 weeks pregnant. Tom was excited too that he sent out emails to his family even if I had cautioned him to play it safe and wait. In the meantime I didn't heed my own advice. I didn't waste time in calling up my mom. I figured that since my family was far away, if anything happened it won't be as bad as having to face these people.

My primary doctor (a general practitioner), asked me if I had a gynegologist. When I replied negative, she handed me a list and adviced me to set an appointment with them. It was unbelievable, from that page long list I couldn't get an appointment with any of them. They were not taking in new patients. The earliest one available was January of next year. After a couple of weeks I finally was able to land an appointment when I told the receptionist that this GP referred me to this doctor (which was true). That did the trick. However the only date she had available was when I would already be on my 10th week.

10th week came, the exam went "fine" up 'til the doctor tried to listen to the heartbeat using the doppler device. There was none. This doctor dismissed it as too early. Alarm bells rang in my head but I chose to take her word for it. After all she was the expert.

Almost 2 weeks later (a few days short on being on the 3rd month - when expecting moms are supposed to breath easier), on a Saturday, I had spotting...

to be continued...

The Necessary Evil Mom

At 7:20 this morning I still haven't heard Evan stirring in the other room across the hallway (we leave both our doors ajar). I had put him to bed at around 11:00 plus last night. Turned on the monitor, still nothing. I said aloud, "I gotta check on Evan".

"I'll do it," my husband volunteered. He loves to unswaddle his son because he gets a big smile as a reward.

"Ok."

A few minutes later my husband comes back and stands by the bed not saying anything.

"Well? Is he awake?" I asked.

"Yes," was his reply. "He was already awake when I went there."

"And he's not crying?"

"No."

It just sounded too good to be true. I got up to see for myself and sure enough there was my wide eyed baby with a big smile on his face. It felt almost evil when I had to take him to his 2 month doctor's visit this morning for his shots.

Almost 2 Feet

Wanna taste my kung-fu? As tita Terai used to say. Mommy loves kissing my toes. Taken after the doctor's visit. Evan at 9 weeks.

That was the nurse told us regarding Evan's height. His pediatrician told us that he is growing at an above average rate. That made this mommy and his daddy happy. He also gained 3 pounds.

He got 4 shots and 1 oral. The crying wasn't as bad as I feared it would be, the last one louder than the 3. Nurse said the 4th shot was suppose to sting more. Initially gave him a bottle to nurse shortly afterwards in the clinic but it wasn't until I breastfed him that he calmed down. I sang to him too.

He's sleepier than usual but when awake he responds to mommy-funny-face-and-singing time. Although he's not enthusiastic about gym-time. Nurse did warn me that the shots' spots (2 for each thigh) was going to be sore. Must be why. As of now his temp is 99.4 . The Tylenol is on standby in case it reached 101.

New Evan photos in his album.

Currently listening to: crickets
Currently reading: Real Simple Magazine (August Issue)
Currently watching: Casanova (Heather Ledger)